so I went to my first esl get together last night. A wine and cheese night. i figured i’d better start hob-nobbing (there you go, renchie) with these people; they are the people that will be calling me when they need a supply (substitute) teacher in the next few months. They will help me get my foot in the door; so-to-speak. I don’t do fake well. But i think i did a pretty good job of smiling and being polite.
I did see people that i know there, too. My last ESL mentor was there, some teachers i had been with this summer were there, one of my esl instructors was there, and a couple of the people that took the course with me were there, too. I ended up having an “ok time” for feeling a bit out-of-place.
But something bothered me. What is it about some teachers that is so intimidating? Why do i feel so inferior to them? I’m right out of school…… I have the latest esl information in my little head right now. I know the most up-to-date curriculum and even though i don’t have experience, I’m excited and without sarcasm about this hallowed career. I see hope and optimism for my future and the future of my future students. Why, then do I feel a substandard teacher sitting amongst these seasoned professionals? Or is it THEM that feel threatened by me? enough whinning…….. it’s time to start winning.